new year, new hat

everyone's gotta throw up a new year's post, right?

i do have "resolutions" this year... more like goals, objectives:

1. grow out my hair. this means no more frying it with the iron. i'm going to adi's stylist in a couple weekends. she's gonna help me do something with it so i don't feel like i have to straqighten it every morning. i know it'll grow out really long if i just leave it alone.

2. travel. this one is so important. definitely europe this summer, probably for a month. saw jen yesterday for coffee and she got me all excited about it. maybe we can convince carrie to come, too - so much fun!

3. save. of course, travel won't happen without this. i have a plan. i've paid off my debts. so i need to be really good about money for the next six months.

4. move. at the end of june it will be one year living with my parents again. it's been difficult. i'm not looking forward to the next six months. but, it's the best and most practical way to save money. i want to move back east, though, after europe. i need to make sure it's something i am doing for me, and me only. i am looking forward to living in toronto again, though.

5. leave jp alone. this year needs to be all about ME. it shouldn't matter what he is or isn't doing. and he's an adult, i need to learn to ignore the feelings i get that he is not well or something happened or he needs me. i need to really let go this year and move on.

6. run. like i used to. every day.

7. i know you can't make love happen, but i'd love to fall in love again. this will be new year's #2 alone for me, and not that the date or occassion matters, but i'd like to meet someone i feel something for this year. i want to know i can feel it for someone other than...

8. hope. i need to keep hoping for the things i want, in a positive, optimistic way. i need to stop talking about them, and keep them in my heart, secret, for myself. i need to believe the things i desire will happen eventually - it's the only way to get through each day sometimes. i need to be better at feeling good and positive and hopeful about my wishes this year.

9. write. this year i WILL write an entire manuscript, no ifs, ands, or buts bout it. and lots of freelancing, too. the idea is to get published, people!

10. do things i like doing. read in public more. go to the beach more. go for hikes. walk with wally. see people i want to see. do more things i want to do. take more pictures.

11. photos. i hate being in pix, i hate having a camera turned on me. i have to get over that. i want to remember my life when i'm older. i want to remember how i felt, and hopefully feel better about it. pictures help make the memories last. i'd love to get a copy of our vancouver trip from josh.

HOPE: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hope